ABOUT THE WORLD OUTSIDE AND MY FIRST UK FRIEND

After brainwashing by Mr.Andalue, I started to work and have fun on foreign websites, like YOUTUBE etc. Although I’m a girl geek which is so hard to find out another girl like me in China, I’m still a classic person. Maybe it’s because of my work. I’m willing to accept things from outside, but deep inside my heart still a little afraid of the “true freedom”.
China is a country that u cant just tell others ur opinions directly. U need to consider carefully, especially when mentioning the political topic.
For a very long time, the education that I’ve to accept taught me not to search on YOUTUBE, do not use facebook or ins. U will in great danger while reading the articles written by people outside China. I really hate this so I signed up my ins and facebook both, for the so-called truth and the Chinese-unknown things.
Now, I’m surfing on the internet of foreign countries, listening to the latest music on YOUTUBE, replying the funny comments from my UK friends on Instagram, choosing goods from the worldwide shipping shopping websites and writing my international blog in English to tell my thoughts to the readers which are possible from any part of the world. Everything seems to be amazing and refreshing. That cute little VPN key and the guy who taught me everything about connecting the outside world, both lead me to a brand new world.
Also, I really need to mention my business. Since I started the vintage business, I have to communicate with people from Japan and read those Japanese which I can hardly understand. I forced myself reading Japanese till midnight. Things became more world-wide after downloading the DEPOP. I never thought that one day I can sell my goods to a foreign stranger.
While first time chatting with Kone, I tried so hard to prove that I’m not selling fake things but 100% authentic vintage goods. to my surprise, she felt so happy to meet me who owned so many vintage bags and was willing to pay me immediately. I was shocked by the sincerity of UK people and also felt really thankful to her trust. Then she told me that it’s still a little hard to live a happy life with colored skin. She is a seller too. But if she just shows her hand while filming the detail of bags then sending to costumes, people will suddenly stop talking rudely without a word. When I suggested her to go to Japan for searching more vintage bags in good price and conditions, she just said that she was afraid. One of her best friends, who is another vintage collector, was staring by surrounding for the whole trip just because of the skin color. She and her friends all feel so unsafely to go to a country with really a few blacks.
These sad stories really moved me. It turns out we have many feelings and experiences which are in common. Then I started telling her about the low status of women in the Chinese 5000-years history, about the feudalistic superstition among Chinese, about how my aunt abortion 4 unborn daughters just for a son. That night we talked about everything till midnight, almost daylight. Then we became really good friends till now.
I do think that business can bring me income, but the most important thing will never be the money of fortune. I always believe that Experience is the most valuable treasure for a person. Vintage business really brings me a lot of chances to meet new friends and learn more things about them. Kone is my first UK friend, I really appreciate her trust. If I have a chance, I really want to meet her in London. We can breathe the fresh(?) air of the same city, sit together at the corner of the coffee shop, keep on talking about her 3 little naughty boys, about our conception of vintage and luxury. No matter where we from, no matter who we r, we know each other and that’s enough.
After writing down those words, I now find that tears almost dropping out from my eyes. Maybe it’s the situation which I’m now trapping in drives me mad and make me cry, or maybe it’s the meaning which the communication between two net friends brings me moves me strongly. I realized that it’s been about 10 days since the last time I talk to Kone. Maybe I need to connect her and tell her about my blog. She must be happy while reading about her part.
Hi Kone, If you are reading this blog now, I want u to know that u really played an important role on my way, the way that a Chinese girl learning how to communicate to the world, using the English that she seldom used for chatting with foreigners, telling her stories to a person in the other side of the earth.
Now I’m about 23-years-old. I think that I’ve already seen a lot of amazing and developed things. But this is the first time, moving about the convenience of the Internet, reaching out of the edge of my country’s limit. Finally, I experienced the happiness of telling stories. And from now on, I will keep blogging my stories, about the wonderful people I met, about the difficulties I conquered, about the happy moments of my life.
Thank u Mr.An, for teaching me how to be an individual person but not just a Chinese.
Thank u Kone, for letting me know that English is not just a lesson I need to study in school but a really useful skill to destroy the Babel Tower, build up the trust between 2 strangers and knowing the world better.